In Human, All to Human, Nietzsche says that
How One Dies is Indifferent.—The whole way in which a man thinks of death during the prime of his life and strength is very expressive and significant for what we call his character. But the hour of death itself, his behaviour on the death-bed, is almost indifferent.
But we also know that he praised Jesus's death and says in his Notebooks
It lacks any reason to say with Paul, that Jesus died "for the sins of others,"... he died for his own "sin". Under other conditions found inside, for example in the middle of the Europe of today, would the same kind of person to live to teach as a nihilist
Piecing these scraps together, might he be getting to the idea that I die a noble death if I die for everyone's indifference to my demise?
Is Jesus's "sin" that we killed him?
Nietzsche was not successful in his lifetime...