If I understand you correctly:
A. I define (inherently valuable, which I believe to be ‘true’) meaning as active achievement of purpose of (personal) value.
B. I have already either achieved or accumulated the means to achieve, with certainty, all purpose I value.
• How do I find meaning now, given A and B?
To rephrase one of the answers above (rework A or B), I might approach from an epistemological analysis. Instead of seemingly arbitrarily (according to and against your current value structure) reworking A and B, it might serve you well to examine certainty.
Oftentimes I’ve found myself at the edge of a similar abyss, before examining my assumption of certainty. This assumption - and its correlated expectations - is, IMHO, like almost all core presuppositions, a manifestation of certain emotional structures operating by contingency.
- Pragmatically - How likely is it that, at this moment, I am omniscient to the degree required to write off further learning / better understanding / more fully integrating of my value structure’s interface with the existence in which I was thrown as a foregone conclusion?
- Given that I rather cannot claim this knowledge, this certainty, what are the costs and the benefits of holding such a view, in spite?
Sure, it allows me to remain passive. Perhaps this is even the foundational motivation, the aforementioned emotional structure operating by contingency’s devilish and particularly convincing argument (perceived as ‘truth’).
However, within my own definition of meaning (A), would it not serve me better to remain active, at least in an attempt to maximize my certainty that I have no more acres of diamonds (purpose(s)) worthy of upending (valuable enough to make the decision to actively achieve)?
Then, you might argue, I will be back where I started (B), finding all purpose of value and the certain means to achieve.
The aforementioned above answer on arguing the impossibility of finding such certainty, to me, is compelling enough to quell my emotional structure’s hunger, at least...
I believe it was Karl Popper who argued against the future being certainly predictable on a similar epistemological grounding.
You just have to make it personal, fully integrating (beyond mere intellectualist / face-value understanding) that maybe you won’t find purpose of value / worthy of active achievement, thus meaning today. Maybe not tomorrow. Maybe never. And maybe that’s okay, even within A.
Perhaps the meaning you seek as a state of active achievement of purpose of value is something deeper than traditional value-seeking.
Perhaps you define and thus create an environment or context for your definition of Self which depends upon achievement, value being a post hoc theorized attempt to explain this dependency on striving.
What is it about the Here and Now, your present Space-time existence / Self, which is, from your current perspective, (perhaps inherently) flawed?
Without assuming where I’m going with this, I believe it was Thomas Stearns Eliot who said something along the lines of half the worlds problems are people trying to become important.
A rigidity in direct resistance to a willingness to experience feelings of:
- Personal Meaninglessness (i.e. “no one cares about me”);
- Inferiority, Inadequacy, Weakness (i.e. “I’m not good enough”);
- Worthlessness (i.e. “it is right that no one should care about me,
not only bc I’m currently not good enough (for love, whose first step
is attention), but bc I never will be, bc I am inherently flawed /
worthless, like a piece of trash floating in the solar winds”);
I do not suspect this is guiding your pursuit of meaning, nor an inferiority complex which demands constant striving in an attempt to quell the self-loathing, nor even an artifice delicately constructed to give logic to the emotional structure which demands inactivity, for fear of failure, shame, isolation, death.
However, I do find it entirely possible that, given your definition of meaning (A), and your assumption of fulfillment of such (B), that it might serve you well to examine your Self (I know I hate myself too for not being able to come up with a better phraseology), meaning, no pun intended:
• Where are A and B coming from? Or, rather, how did I arrive at A and B with such conviction?
I believe therein lies your highest hope of answering your questions of existence.