I know that my mind is a network of neurons, where some personality resides, with emotional responses, and motivation. I know that love and friendship and fear and many other phenomena stem from ancestral instincts. This type of thinking undermines my daily existence: that all physics is governed by math. We are effectively programs governed by myriads of switches, be it collapses of wave functions, summation of signals arriving at synapses. Automatons. Parts in sheets of calculations. There may be an actual world or a simulation of it, we'd be the same, parts of the "code".
"I" is an emergent phenomenon. How do I see myself then? How do I continue existing and having some volition?
Specifically, my question is: How can the argument of free will be reconciled with the evidences of a material reality?
Given my inability to understand serious fiction and non-fiction, I know I am most probably wrong. I have a history of flawed psychosocial development and experiences. But still, could you pinpoint exactly why my reasoning is inconsistent? If you think it isn't, what are your thoughts about it? Have you had the same thoughts? What do you do?
P.S. I know that it is always current knowledge and its interpretation that informs theories. I think it was only fair to use God Almighty to explain phenomena 2,000 years ago. So there's an argument, that, come next century, physics/math/AI would give us a different model of the world. Yet, I can't just wait decades till that change comes.
P.P.S. Sorry, if my plain stupidity wasted your time.
TL;DR How do I 'normally' live knowing that everything around me and me is physics/chemistry/biology governed by math?