I am trying to find the name of the philosophy which matches my beliefs, so that I can research further without having similar but different results getting in the way.
The key features I'm looking for are:
- Life has no intrinsic meaning.
- You cannot give real meaning to life yourself.
- All values are relative and therefore meaningless.
Using the definitions from this source, I would say I'm not an existentialist since I don't believe you can add your own meaning, and I'm not an absurdist since I wouldn't adopt an artificial belief.
Some sources, like this one, suggest that nihilism is linked with pessimism and "perhaps, an impulse to destroy", which does not resonate with my beliefs. Dwelling on the meaninglessness of life makes me feel absolutely neutral about things; not sad or angry.
The best way to explain how I feel is that life is like the inside of a dream; when you are waking up, you realise that the things your 'character' valued in your dream never mattered at all.
I am aware that there are lots of terms going around, and it may be that my beliefs are a combination of a couple of different philosophies. One thing which is really putting me off is how many different definitions there are for each term. It seems like everyone has their own definition, making it really difficult to pin down what they actually mean. For example, my previous source says that nihilism suggests that you cannot add meaning, but I don't see that appearing in Wikipedia's definition of nihilism.
In any case, thanks in advance for any help.
To clarify, I would define a value as something which you feel that you should want, as opposed to just something which you want. I would define meaning as a the aim of helping something which you value over yourself.