I know this question may be have been asked innumerable times over the last 4,000 years but I'm curious to see how serious theists reconcile God's existence with the horrible suffering that a very large amount of humans are facing every day in mid 2023.
I watched the news and today is 1 year since Uvalde. My heart breaks for a woman who visits her child's grave every day, and asks her picture (which she keeps on her nightstand) to give her strength. God certainly wasn't there for that little girl, and now that woman will have to live the rest of her days in sadness. Is that living? What did she do to deserve that? Why would God allow that?
On another note, I am miserable and mentally ill. I have few friends and spent much of my adolescence being bullied and made to feel inferior. The girl I fancied decided she needed to punish me for daring to like her and let me know where I belong in the pecking order. That really wounded me. God obviously made me inferior as there was no attraction for me, yet I was attracted to her.
I really want to know why this is. I've read many theodicies over the last year but none seem to fit in my head.
God not being all powerful: That doesn't make sense. I get that when someone builds a technological device, they may not always know how everything works and how to keep it from breaking; but the universe isn't a thing. Its EVERYTHING. If God created everything, how silly would it be to think he isn't omnipotent.
God is not all good: This doesn't make sense to me either. He is the first thing that ever was and will likely be the last thing there ever was. Why would he choose to be evil? He can do whatever he wants, and he surely knows there is more value in creating good things than destroying. People are evil because they are angry and/or mentally ill. God would be above those impediments.
Humans have free will: This one seems the most plausible, but if you dissect it; it falls apart in the water. Yes, God could give us free will, but if he is the narrator of the story, why wouldn't he want to direct it to fit his own designs. Also, does he know what the human will do with free will. What if its something that doesn't gel with him. Also, when you are all-powerful; you likely know what the person is going to do long before they do it; so it isn't really free will after all.
So what is the answer? Does anybody have any ideas?
I racked my brains and the only thing that I could come up with is that God favors people who are not selectively moral. Like you could be nice sometimes, but are you truly good? Maybe only God knows that?