In reality, I am an embodied Self, in reality terms. In existence (in reality terms) I am an awareness of the experience of existence (there are no other 'terms' for existence other than reality terms - this is the 'nub' of phenomenology as I understand it - Husserl wanted to strip reality from existence (even his assistant for some years Heidegger, and others (including me), agree that this is not entirely possible).