All through this question you are seeking for meaning as the source of your willingness to live, while stating feelings of confusion, fear, and frustration.

I’d say you are looking in the wrong place. 'Feeling' itself is a fundamental part of existence derived from a balance of mundane human needs: rest, nutrition, physical activity, meaningful human relations, and engagement in fulfilling projects. When these elements are in equilibrium, we often experience satisfaction. When they are not, we feel discontent and perceive life as meaningless.

What happens after I die? All the dreams and goals I was working on are all gone. What was the point of them? There is no point.

Again, this suggests you seek meaning and happiness in the future at the expense of the present moment. A good life is its own reward: meaning naturally emerges from authentic living rather than being its primary pursuit.

I recommend taking small steps to adjust your life's rhythm and observing the impact. It's important to recognize, given the somber tone of your question, that you might be experiencing depression, which can skew your perception.

For instance, a fitness routine may initially feel daunting and uncomfortable. Yet, embracing this discomfort is a part of progressing in life. Observing others at the gym can be enlightening; you'll notice individuals who have learned to accept and grow through their struggles. That discomfort never goes away, but while challenging, is a catalyst for growing our resilience.

What's the reason to live in this life?

In summary, the reason to live in this life isn't about finding an abstract meaning, but rather in being present and balancing the essential aspects of life. This will naturally lead to a sense of purpose and fulfilment.

This is a pragmatic (and somewhat stoic) perspective not very different from the answer contributed by h_undatus. If you expected some meaning to be revealed that will make your worries go away, sorry, it is the other way around, a gradual process that you need to initiate yourself.

All through this question you are seeking for meaning as the source of your willingness to live, while stating feelings of confusion, fear, and frustration.

I’d say you are looking in the wrong place. 'Feeling' itself is a fundamental part of existence derived from a balance of mundane human needs: rest, nutrition, physical activity, meaningful human relations, and engagement in fulfilling projects. When these elements are in equilibrium, we often experience satisfaction. When they are not, we feel discontent and perceive life as meaningless.

What happens after I die? All the dreams and goals I was working on are all gone. What was the point of them? There is no point.

Again, this suggests you seek meaning and happiness in the future at the expense of the present moment. A good life is its own reward: meaning naturally emerges from authentic living rather than being its primary pursuit.

It's important to recognize, given the somber tone of your question, that you might be experiencing depression, which can skew your perception. I recommend taking small steps to adjust your life's rhythm and observing the impact.

For instance, a fitness routine may initially feel daunting and uncomfortable. Yet, embracing this discomfort is a part of progressing in life. Observing others at the gym can be enlightening; you'll notice individuals who have learned to accept and grow through their struggles. That discomfort never goes away, but while challenging, is a catalyst for growing our resilience.

What's the reason to live in this life?

In summary, the reason to live in this life isn't about finding an abstract meaning, but rather in being present and balancing the essential aspects of life. This will naturally lead to a sense of purpose and fulfilment.

This is a pragmatic (and somewhat stoic) perspective not very different from the answer contributed by h_undatus. If you expected some meaning to be revealed that will make your worries go away, sorry, it is the other way around, a gradual process that you need to initiate yourself.